Again.

I guess things happen for a reason. If I was going through what I'm going through two years ago, I wouldn't have handled things as well as I do now. It's funny how you put your vulnerable heart out there again thinking that things are finally turning out how I have always hoped for and suddenly go south so hard. Crazier than a freaking roller coaster ride no?

But I guess I have learned to accept things the way it turned out. Sure, it didn't turn out the way I hoped for and things aren't going the way we once planned but if you know you did your best then it's okay. I know I did my best. And it hurts. No lie, but acceptance is the only thing right now that would keep me going on?

Some things can be so temporary. From having a conversation about everything beneath the stars to having empty Skype calls. I don't blame either of us. Things just happens. Like I said, best thing to do is just to accept things the way it is. What I blogged about months ago was true. I said things according to my heart and I'm not ashamed or beaten by it. I just can't control it anymore.

I hate how my blog is full of soppy emo crap but I can't help it. It's so contradicting reading things like one moment I'm happy. I found something so amazing and I share it with everyone and the next thing I know, things just come crashing down. But I guess this is life right? There is no GPS to navigate you to turn at the right junction. You just gotta drive around and make turns and discover dead-ends and eventually find your way out from there to hope you find the way to where you want to be. But without wrong turns, how would we ever know?

Everyone has a destination but what's more important is learning throughout the journey and I really hope to find happiness and be happy. For now, I just want to be happy everything before me.

I should seriously fill my blog up with happier contents *insertslaughingemojiwithtears*.

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"Maybe we're just two from different worlds, but if we're meant to be.. we will be."