Maybe it's the pms but tonight's just one of those nights where I wanna bawl my eyes out over the most petty reasons. Tonight's also one of those nights where I wished I had someone to go to and just cry without feeling stupid but instead, feel like I'm well protected. Someone who would tell me it's okay. Someone who would just hold me and whisper "it'll all good. Why don't we go get cheese tart tomorrow?" Someone who would wipe away the tears that streamed down my cheeks and tell me how cute my ugly crying face is. Someone who would go through it all with me no matter how tough I am to handle.
Tonight's one of those nights where I fill my cup with doubts and worries. Thoughts that won't make sense the moment I open my eyes tomorrow morning. How stupid I'd feel thinking back about this very moment typing this.
Tonight's one of those nights where I need comfort. To be encouraged with patience and love. To be showered in care. To know that I'm silly for overthinking.
Tonight's one of those nights where I want to drown myself in deep sleep. Sleep so good you never want to get up. Sorry, I'm not suicidal okay?
Tonight's one of those nights where I want to believe in myself. Tell myself I'm not the loser I feel I am. I am a strong person who has her own path. Tell myself that I may not be good in what my siblings are good at and still be as amazing. Tell myself it's okay to be different. I should not expect myself to be someone just to please anyone else but accept me for myself. Just the way I am. I should look at all the things I am and not my flaws.
Tonight's one of those nights I just want to be okay.
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