JoJo - Disaster

In Your Arms - Kina Grannis (Official Music Video)

What Is Love?

Yeah , you :)

What's this we call love? What's this love we know that makes us fall tipsy over and downhill like no one's business? We often drown ourselves in this 'Love' and numb ourselves and believe what we want to. We want chocolates, flowers, dinner dates, sex and so and people nowadays often forgets what's love all about.

Love is not just about two people wanting to get into each other's pants.

It's not like movies, or story books. Not everybody's love has a happy ending. No, that's not love. Love is when one cares endlessly for someone. When they care about the other more than for themselves. When one understands what they need to give in order to make the other happy. When one is always around to pick you up when you fall down down down.. When one thinks of your happiness means more than the world to them.

That's love.

Love means a tablespoon of sacrifice, a handful of happiness, a kg of understanding, a bottle of thoughts and a pinch of sadness. Of course no 'Love' is 100% packed with good. Without a little bit of bad we wouldn't learn. We wouldn't know. We often make mistakes, but we ought to learn from it. Not repeat it tremendous amount of times. If that happens, it's gonna lead to more fights and soon enough, one shall fall out of love, give up and end that special thing we call love will banish.

I'm not just saying about a relationship. I'm talking about families, friends, siblings, and god knows who.

Love is about respect. You don't just go around fooling with feelings and leave.

Even when all things fail, in life, your relationship totally sucked, you lost your job, your wife or husband left, your kid turned into some druggie, God loves you and you should do whatever it takes to get back up. Even if no one is there to be around to pick you up. You should always know that God is there for you. Obviously, it's not easy and you might be thinking

'Hey, you're just a 15 year old kid, shut the *bleep* up'

. Just think about it.

Love can make your whole world filled with rainbows and candies and just full with joy. But don't go tearing it down for the other person. Even if your life isn't as good, as happy, you don't have to go around tearing other people's happiness. That's pure selfish. Why don't you find back your own little set of water colors and paint it back yourself. That's way happier, seeing your masterpiece. Or you can add a little of yourself into that person's world.

Don't be selfish, share some love and kindness to people who needs it, and someday when you're in need, someone would be there for you and give you a hand. Be grateful for who you are and for everything, all the love you get. In return give some back. Not just by saying or showing it for the sake of it. But from the bottom of your heart. You'll feel happier.

I promise ♥

Stereo Hearts

Hey, long time no blog.

I'm still sitting for my PMR. Yeah, two more papers and I'm done! But yeah since it's been so long since I've blogged so yeah I'm back. Life's been good. Kinda. Actually, it's been quite crappy till two weeks ago? Maybe??

I miss blogging. Yes, I really do. I miss writing, too. I just had no time for anything.. I didn't want distractions and yeah. But WOOOO. So what should I blog about? OH YES, I still am THIS short. I didn't grow. My dad insults me all the time. Yeah, I'm not sure why he likes doing that to me, but hey, I got genes. Wanna blame? Blame it on while I was still a sperm swimming into my mom.

What the fudge.

~O

I never get why people could be so insensitive at times.

Yes, I don't get how you can always push faults and blame me for stupid things which you do too.

So, why do you go all pointing-out-my-mistakes-and-bad-stuff and you can ignore me anytime and just do whatever you want.

I'm not your little robot punching bag -.-

I got slushied

You are my sunshine.

How long was it since I posted here? Yes, weeks? Anyways, my grades were bad this term. So much has happened and I don't even know if I should blog here. My cousins are a bunch of spoiled but cute kids. Yes, they are pretty much spoiled. They get whatever they want even when they are told not to they'd find a way to do things and get what they want.

I am bored. Kill me

Hey Monday - Candles

Texting Etiquette

The Climb

I look funny.

So it's been weeks since I've blogged any shit. Correct, and there was alot of shit going on. Still is. Uncle Patrick's home to stay now. Not going back to China with his family. The clan expanded. Home got alot noisier and crazy. But the good thing was everyone's here together.

I don't know what to be more annoyed about. My life lately or my major exam in the year ends. I need to start doing something because there isn't any more time to lose.

I've been so down lately. No one quite notice that. I try to smile and laugh and be crazy but deep inside? I'm pretty hurt. I'm pretty sad. I'm pretty depressed. You don't try to understand how I feel. When it's not my problem you'd be mean to me. Hurting me inside in a way, no one knows or understands. I have feelings too you know? Not that you wanna rant and rage you could bring it all to me. I could listen to you talk and stuff I'd always be here for you. I swear, but you gotta understand me. You always give me the 'Okay, it's my fault' treatment, what can I do?

School. I got hated by girls who don't know me. Saying I'm fake. Don't make judgements if you don't know anything. Never make fucked up conclusions when you didn't even look at the procedures.

Dear, Lola.

I've given my diary a name. In case if you're wondering why, it's becuz I find it really boring writing to a book. So, I decided to give it a name.

Anyways, nothing was really good for me lately. In everything.. but I'm not here to rant about it.

It's been a week or so since I've really blogged. I had a really weird dream last night..

Its related to Heaven and Hell.. Which I'm trying not to offend it religiously, since it's just a dream.

I was walking at Mid Valley walking with a friend to Gardens. I was at the bridge, and a moment later there was a bright flash and everything turned to glass and I could see through them and there was a really nice garden outside. Everything was pure, white and clear but there was a dark aura around everyone. There was people.. but they were sad. Well, most of them.. then there was this person who greeted me by the escalator, I don't remember if it was a he or a she but that person greeted me and told me this is Heaven's hell.. I know it is weird but there was some creepy aura about that person. And in my dream I had a boyfriend. I had two, actually. They were friends.. I don't know why that happened but yeah, so I was with a guy and he treated me well, but I missed the other guy for some reason but at that moment he started hugging me and touching me. I pushed him away and just ran away screaming I wanted to leave.. And so I kept running and running till a point I stopped and I woke up..

Knowing what a stupid dream I just wanted to knock myself up and just bleed. I was emotional about what has happened to me. I can't blog it out but to all my close friends who's reading this, if you don't know, ask me.

I've been thinking alot too.. I've been wondering if I should take a move on the choices I have.

I need to think..