Love stands for hurt.

Me, at the CHS Prom :)

It took ages for TK to upload them.

Don't you feel that the more you love, the more it hurts? Yeah, that makes sense. So today at school, not a good day. NOT a good day. I got my English marks ; 80% NOT GOOD.

Somehow lately I'm really emotional. Yeah , emotional pains. Maybe it was because of that day? I got blamed just for buying a book for my cousin. Which I have no idea how it got torn. Somehow, I got blamed for not checking it properly. And somehow, I don't really know why is all these crap happening. I mean, literally why do I deserve it? x.x Not fair. This world is UNFAIR.

Secondly, my fucking grades are dropping. I gotta start picking up my books.

Yeah, I mean it. Somehow.

I wish I had a time machine so I could go back in time when I was a little kid staying at home playing 'masak-masak' with my imaginary friend which I forgotten. Like, literally I had little moving cars. Which was big to me at that time and now, that I'm really big. I have a hard time fitting my ass into little rides at Toys 're Us.

I find that embarrassing yet upsetting :/

Know what's worst, having ER HAU asking if I was having hormone imbalance.

Now, what the fuck, what does hormones gotta do with like, this period of my life.

Maybe it is, but yeah, like what the hell right?

I couldn't sleep well, I woke up with tears all over my face and eye sore with a blurry vision which was creepy.

I ish lacking of blood. x.x

God, I wish a vampire would come and drain out my blood. Save all the trouble for dying.

It's like doing double deeds, I fed the vampire and I would stop living here in misery.

Tadaaaaa~

I wish to end my miserable life once and for all.

Loves.

Christmas Is Coming.

I do not enjoy the fact of people crying in my house for no reasons. This is nasty. I got enough crap for one day(: Christmas is coming. What I want for Christmas this year is :-

• Having the perfect prom.
• Getting a new phone(:(But most porbably next year):)
• A hair curler.
• A better life.
• A new heart.♥

Can you believe that, it's December already? I don't wanna go to school! But well, sometimes doing nothing at home is really boring! I miss my friends because sometimes I don't have anything to do or to say to my family. My aim now is to change myself. To go to prom. It's my gig, to sing. It's for the singing. Grr.. Mama's mad. She's the 'man' in the house.

So, today I actually spring cleaned my room. My wardrobe. Hehe. My table's much cleaner only when it gets dirty again! Jeez! It took me hours to clean out my wardrobe. I was on msn while folding and cleaning my clothes. It took me more than 2 hours to put everything away. Any how, I threw away alot of my clothes. Clothes I do not wear and well, I gave it away(: Have a good heart♥ I even found a BUG in there! Mum threw it away. I used the can of Detol in the kitchen to spray my whole wardrobe(: Unbelievable.

Chi-Cheng(: God loves you. Sing that to yourself.(: Read bible. Haha, you know what? I'm actually a Buddhist. But, I don't really pray like my dad. I pray to god. Hope he answers me! Hehe.

Blog more when it turns to night(:

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-Janey~ Little Ms. Sunshine♥ †God†