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I WILL BLOG AFTER MY EXAMS :X

Before the Worst

I am sure, that I'd fail my test tmrw.

I know, I, am, a failure. Somehow things are just so bad lately that I wanna hide under my bed and never come out again. Yes, like a baby am I right? Anyways, some bitch has been messing with me lately. I will NOT name her. She's such a bitch I just wanna stab her with a fork on her tongue.

Instead of me blogging and ranting, why not study right? I am totally unprepared for this exam. Gosh! I knew about this exam a week ago or so. I know, what kinda student is this!? GAH, I WILL prepare for the next. I swear. I know, I need motivations to help me go through this crap :( Boo hoo.

Anyways, school has been.. okay. I can't really find the right words for it. *Sigh*

I feel like slapping myself :( GAH.

Bonjour.

Tomorrow, is my time to shine.

Yes, we're finally on tomorrow night. Though I've performed many times, everytime I think of being on stage gives me cold feet. Yeah, I'm such a loser right? Yeah, I am. Anyways, I PROMISE to take TONS of pictures tomorrow. Know why I'm so happy? 'Cuz I got a new phone! Okay, not that new but yeah. I finally don't have to worry about mom or anyone calling me without it DYING on me.

No, I am not exaggerating! I better get ready my black pumps :) Nights!

Rose.

Tadaaaa. Could anyone help me find out who's it from?

Guess what guys? I got a stork of rose today. How odd. For Valentine's? If it is, thanks but super late. That was what Rick said. Either ways I was very surprised. Somehow, happy that I mean something to someone. I spent the whole day trying to guess who it was from with the help of Sher Main and Becca.

Oh gosh, my phone is f*cked. I need a new phone asap. :( My contacts and all are screwed with all the battery problems. It drives me insane. I'm using my super old phone the pink Sony Ericsson flip. I don't get why the battery is always the problem. Not just my phones, most of the phones nowadays are having bad batteries. Someone better invent something new and yeah like Steve Jobs or Bill Gates, they get famous and earn tons of money-just by designing a super-saver battery. How awesome would that be? Save tons of money from changing batteries. Last words in the end - I NEED A NEW PHONE.

So, yesterday after school I went back to grandma's right? The first thing Ian gave me when I got home was a cheery smile and a warm hug. Yeah, literally WARM cuz he was playing and sweating a little. Eww but cute. Grandma forgotten to buy my lunch so she boiled some eggs and and ate eggs with bread. She made an extra egg for Ian. We're egg fanatic! I gave him this Transformers keychain. He was super happy! He kept laughing and jumping around, awww. He's super adorable, I JUST WANNA SQUISH HIM TO DEATH! GAHAHAHA. No, Aunt Chloe would kill me. Literally. When it was time for him to take a shower, he refuse to because I was still here. Excuses. He said 'Ka-Jie, I don't want to shower now. Later you go home ady then how?' *sad face* But, I managed to convince him to shower by promising that I won't go until he's done. He went up and about 10 minutes later my dad came to pick me up. He saw me walking out from my grandma's window and he called me but I obviously couldn't hear him so I just left, grandma told me he was upset and said 'Ka-Jie bluff people-one.' That was the guilt I felt :( Today he was okay, not pissed at me or anythin. Laughed and played with me.

'Ian, you love me or you love Marsha more?'

'Heheheheh, you' *grinnnn

'AWWWW :D okay do you love me or Rick more?'

'Hmm hmmm you!'

And Aunt Chloe asked 'You love Ka-jie or me more?'

*PAUSED*

'KA-JIE!!'

How cute is that? I love that bond I have with him :)

Filling Japanese rice.

My dinner.

Okay, as NOT like what I had for dinner.. It was something like that. Okay, I'm kidding. More of normal rice and loads of Japanese seaweed and spices mixed together and that was it.

Don't judge me. It is mega-ultra-super-duper filling. I feel like a fish now-bloated fish, I might add.

So, after school dad picked me up from grandma's and we went to TDA (Taman Desa Aquarium) to get some fishes. (Yea, my fishes are all dead- Most of em.) and a tortoise. My previous (just got it not long.) tortoise somehow managed to climb out of the bowl and my mom accidentally stepped on it. R.I.P young thing. :(

Homework, not something I do very often. I'm too tired nowadays. Yes, excuses, Jane. You useless pig, but I just can't seem to recharge.

Okay, this is to-die-for!

I've been dying to have a camera for ages but I'm not sure to get a Polaroid one or save up for a Lumix one. Choices. But I don't know if I should get the Polaroid one 'cuz the films are mada-fudgin (Yes, I amphasised) expensive plus, the downside is that there's no effects to it. But it's so cute!! Okay, enough blabbering, Jane.

Gosh, I feel like dying now. I should be getting ready for school tomorrow but instead I'm stonning here doing nothing :(

Anyhow, I started checking out alot of people's blog. Such as Audrey's

She's the girl who's engaged to the boss/owner of nuffnang. Remember the crazy proposal that went on for days on Facebook? Yes, her. She's short. But pretty. Oh wells, girls with looks. :) no, I don't mean me. I'm pretty unattractive.

Notice how girls always say that they're fat? It's kinda unreasonable for when a girl who has no boobs, stick legs and smaller than average waist and they complain that they're fat right? Yes, they want attention. Okay, not just attention but a whole loads of comforting words telling them they're not. Talk about insecurities. Yes, I am like that (Yes, don't judge me T.T but I don't have that skinny stick legs and yeah I have big thighs) Therefore, I should not say anything about it. But I can't help. Yes. I wish the Devil inside of me would shut the fudge up :( Before I upset anyone and get mobbed.

Stick a needle in my eye.

Jane is..

Sick.

Okay maybe not really sick but I do feel sick. At the moment.

I skipped school - AGAIN. Okay, twice this year. Isn't

that good? I swore to make perfect attendants but no avail.

I failed.

So, Twilight is on FOX Movies. Grr. Yes, you must be wondering why I'm watching it and all if I don't really like it. I say it's because I'm home alone and I don't want to be in a 'quiet' condition. Yes, I'm afraid.

Oh god, Bella, stop being a slut when Edward doesn't wanna make love before marriage. Chillax sikit-lah! That's a really funny part. Oh yes, I'm watching Twilight -Eclipse now.

In US, it is Valentine's Day. :')

Happy Valentine's Day everyone.

Oh, Jane. Silly girl, no one wants you as his Valentine. Therefore, I am : Forever Alone.

Kisses

Happy Valentine's Day!

I am here to apologize. For not blogging in such a long time!

For a sudden, I have the urge to blog after reading this beautiful blog by this man Jason Lee

Yes, you guys should check it out! He has two beautiful girls and his photography is just astonishing.

I've been dying to learn photography but my parents think it's a waste of time.

Oh gee, they would never get it. *sigh*

Anyways, today is Valentine's Day. Yes, nothing special. Any ordinary Tuesdays with a pinch of love and a multiple couples everywhere. Not to mention ROSES. Oh, how I die to get them.

Ha- nawwww, just kidding. I was talking about hoping to receive a bouquet.. or maybe just one piece of rose to Rick. But no doubt, it did not happen. No one wanted me as their Valentine.

Heeee, it's alright. I shall be blogging to waste time.

School was a bore. Because nothing much happened. 'Oh thanks, Captain Obvious!'

Yes, a bunch of homework piling up my table and I just can't be bothered to put my pen down. Just so exhausted! From endless school work to volleyball practices. Not to mention the up-coming event/performance :- MAHSA's annual dinner. GAH.

Guess what?! Someone decided to sell me his iPhone 3Gs for 200! YES, I WANT IT. THANK YOU SO MUCH! Oh, I just want/need a smart phone. My reloads are costing me a fortune. Yes, I use to that word - FORTUNE.

Anyways, I'm not gonna deny that I'm a big spender. I just have endless needs. WHY?! Though, I try to control myself. But I can't help it!

Like this! I saw one exactly like that in full black and less by one inch. It's branded and costs 80 Bucks. To-die-for, no?

Yumm ;D

JoJo - Disaster

In Your Arms - Kina Grannis (Official Music Video)

What Is Love?

Yeah , you :)

What's this we call love? What's this love we know that makes us fall tipsy over and downhill like no one's business? We often drown ourselves in this 'Love' and numb ourselves and believe what we want to. We want chocolates, flowers, dinner dates, sex and so and people nowadays often forgets what's love all about.

Love is not just about two people wanting to get into each other's pants.

It's not like movies, or story books. Not everybody's love has a happy ending. No, that's not love. Love is when one cares endlessly for someone. When they care about the other more than for themselves. When one understands what they need to give in order to make the other happy. When one is always around to pick you up when you fall down down down.. When one thinks of your happiness means more than the world to them.

That's love.

Love means a tablespoon of sacrifice, a handful of happiness, a kg of understanding, a bottle of thoughts and a pinch of sadness. Of course no 'Love' is 100% packed with good. Without a little bit of bad we wouldn't learn. We wouldn't know. We often make mistakes, but we ought to learn from it. Not repeat it tremendous amount of times. If that happens, it's gonna lead to more fights and soon enough, one shall fall out of love, give up and end that special thing we call love will banish.

I'm not just saying about a relationship. I'm talking about families, friends, siblings, and god knows who.

Love is about respect. You don't just go around fooling with feelings and leave.

Even when all things fail, in life, your relationship totally sucked, you lost your job, your wife or husband left, your kid turned into some druggie, God loves you and you should do whatever it takes to get back up. Even if no one is there to be around to pick you up. You should always know that God is there for you. Obviously, it's not easy and you might be thinking

'Hey, you're just a 15 year old kid, shut the *bleep* up'

. Just think about it.

Love can make your whole world filled with rainbows and candies and just full with joy. But don't go tearing it down for the other person. Even if your life isn't as good, as happy, you don't have to go around tearing other people's happiness. That's pure selfish. Why don't you find back your own little set of water colors and paint it back yourself. That's way happier, seeing your masterpiece. Or you can add a little of yourself into that person's world.

Don't be selfish, share some love and kindness to people who needs it, and someday when you're in need, someone would be there for you and give you a hand. Be grateful for who you are and for everything, all the love you get. In return give some back. Not just by saying or showing it for the sake of it. But from the bottom of your heart. You'll feel happier.

I promise ♥