Dear, Lola.

I've given my diary a name. In case if you're wondering why, it's becuz I find it really boring writing to a book. So, I decided to give it a name.

Anyways, nothing was really good for me lately. In everything.. but I'm not here to rant about it.

It's been a week or so since I've really blogged. I had a really weird dream last night..

Its related to Heaven and Hell.. Which I'm trying not to offend it religiously, since it's just a dream.

I was walking at Mid Valley walking with a friend to Gardens. I was at the bridge, and a moment later there was a bright flash and everything turned to glass and I could see through them and there was a really nice garden outside. Everything was pure, white and clear but there was a dark aura around everyone. There was people.. but they were sad. Well, most of them.. then there was this person who greeted me by the escalator, I don't remember if it was a he or a she but that person greeted me and told me this is Heaven's hell.. I know it is weird but there was some creepy aura about that person. And in my dream I had a boyfriend. I had two, actually. They were friends.. I don't know why that happened but yeah, so I was with a guy and he treated me well, but I missed the other guy for some reason but at that moment he started hugging me and touching me. I pushed him away and just ran away screaming I wanted to leave.. And so I kept running and running till a point I stopped and I woke up..

Knowing what a stupid dream I just wanted to knock myself up and just bleed. I was emotional about what has happened to me. I can't blog it out but to all my close friends who's reading this, if you don't know, ask me.

I've been thinking alot too.. I've been wondering if I should take a move on the choices I have.

I need to think..

..

I feel emo.

WHY.

Etc.

If a person ever stabs you in the heart,

LICK THEIR FACE.

Yesh, I wanna stab you.

Epicness

Ann and I.

I gotta admit, IR was pretty dead but yet it was fun. I mean yeah :P Atleast the people I knew had fun.

Look at us, macam cheerios saja ;X

And this was a saved post since I couldn't blog that night.

I gotta say, this was an epicture

(get it? EPIC-PICTURE- it's a cool one word I made)

Welcome to the land of ALIENS.

(P.S Ignore my stoned face =.=, thanks ALOT Kylie!)

Talitha and I.

Yesh, I jealous of her Iphone4

Yesh yesh, LAUGH AT ME.

It's uberly funny. I know.

Suyin and I :)

LOL

My gay-ass friend Nicholas and Bryan and ANN :D

Yesh, I forgive your countless amount of ditching.

I love this epicture,too.

And here goes our nice shot :)

Yesh, bestie.

Gosh, Bryan :D You gay-nut

I love this EPICTURE! :D

It's me and my epic face, Nicholas and his Trophy-thingamajig obsession and Bryan's priceless face!

This is a perfect picture... TILL BRYAN FUCKING STOOD IN MY WAY.

DEM YOU BITCH! xD

This picture is uberly epic.Last but not lease, me and my winks :D

Look at Justin at the back and laugh xD

So, people may start rumors. Not just rumors- ABSURD RUMORS, and you'd probably be like thinking what the fuck did I ever do to them to start up something to pathetic?! I mean if you're so unsure of something why would you wanna say that out?

I'm dying for a new wallet. My wallet's just pure retarded. I've been eye-ing on this Hello Kitty one. :) It's precious!

Anyways, I'm webbing with a friend :) I'll blog later :)

Look :D

Jane's facebook

Lalala. :D There are awesome pictures out there! Today's IR was super amazing :) Thanks to Wesley Methodist for having us :)

Special thanks to Kylie, Talitha, Ann, Suyin, Sher Main, Nicholas, Bryan and afew more close friends which I don't wanna mention.

The sad thing, we have school tomorrow! Which is really sad. I mean it's Saturday! Rebecca Black gets to shove her little Friday and I have to go to school tomorrow. BOO that. Stupid Rebecca..

Nothing much.

Much loves :D

Don't be alittle girl.

To you, little special someone :D

You could be the Peanut and I could be the Jelly :)

I am Hungry.

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The post was saved and re-posted after 4 hours.

Sometimes big things comes bit by bit.

Be patient and your dream would come true :)

So , basically I did my project almost half a day.

And BOOM, I started re-tumblr-ing again :) I've been in office for the whole day and all I did was stone. STONE COLD.

Anyways, do you think projects are useless? Say 'I', I mean doing countless amounts of projects for PMR? Can't we just take the test and MOVE ON? Like hello? Wasting precious time on studying.

Just kidding. I dislike the fact that I have curly hair roots. Yesh , it's kinda hard to believe that I have curly hair when I was younger but as I grew older my hair became straighter but the roots're still wavy-ish curly.

People often mistakes me for malay, that is when I was younger. And to all the people who did. GO GET YOUR EYES CHECKED! :)

When I was younger, sugar was a treat for me. Yesh, sugar sugar. Me and my brother would take packets of sugar and pour into our mouths and taste the sweetness of it and the goodness of it while dissolving. Ofcourse that put us into trouble. If grandma or anyone catches us doing that we'd receive tons of scoldings. We were kids, and that was what we were suppose to do.

I wish I could go back to time.

USELESS TWAT

What's beneath that smile? No one knows.

I got back from a bad day.

I thought something good might happen today.

I thought things would go the other day around.

I wish people would see what I want at times, not to be selfish

but I'm just tired of living in what's killing me.

Sure we'all want a nice happy life, who doesn't?

But it would be nice to have someone who would really get me and be there for me when I really really need a shoulder.

When I need a breather, a punching bag and who doesn't mind all of my fuss.

And I'm sorry for my emo-ness lately.

Just like, just now, I went to my facebook and I saw this useless twat commented on my profile pictures and I was like, WHAT THE FUCK, DOUCHE? GET A FUCKING LIFE.

You don't need to comment if I don't look cool!

So get a life.

Why is my life so bad now? :(

I wish I could just be somewhere else and not give a damn about no one now.

I wish to just break your freaking neck and leave you in hell.

Satan wouldn't bother about you.

I wish to just cut myself...

Thank you for this fucked up life.

Love sparks

Don't know where it was from, but it made me feel better.

I need to feel appreciated , ASAP!

At the point I kinda had a bad time at tuition, I tried to top Brian(Ee)'s high score, I beat him at first and he beat me then. It was a fun game, it's called... *thinks* I forgotten >

But it's related to balls and hoops.

BIG NEWS, NICK AND HER ALL TIME BITCH GIRLFRIEND BROKE UP

And I am proud of you, bro.

Like I've always thought of her as a bitch before anything happened, you should actually fight and defend yourself form those rediculous lies and jealousy.

She's a big fat bitch. She two timed with you and A.P and now that she was officially with you, she two-timed with someone again.

Man, girls these day's are plain desperate.

A touch of paint.

Kylie, please don't get mad at me

Thanks for borrowing me Dear John.

It was an amazing book :)

I really appreciate the meaning of the book, and for some reason it kinda relates me.

Anyways, I finished Dear John within 1 and a half days.

Anyways, I felt miserable today, I got yelled at for no reason cuz this douche who was sitting beside me, stared at me like literally in a disturbing way, and he poked me with a pen. MY pen. I borrowed him cuz he didn't really disturb me for past weeks, and now what the fuck. I got scolded thanks to that douche.

The teacher judged the problem without even knowing what happened and she 'blamed' me for talking to him - which I soooo did NOT - and later I cried over the bad things that happened to me lately, I couldn't hold my feelings anymore knowing I could do worst if I keep holding it back..

Anyways, I didn't really have much to say to anyone except Kylie.

She's been always trying to keep me up and I know, I'm a really terrible friend at times.

Please love me, Kyls.

Thanks for the math cheats !!

Naah, I'm kidding!

So, tell me how's your holiday. :) Leave it at the cbox :)

hooplaaa :D

I love this picture :)

No, this is NOT porn.

*serious face*

I got a new hat :D Guess who's it from?! A FRIEND :D TADAAAA. Ofcuz, I had to lie to my mom about it. She'd ask who's it from. Don't worry, it's a girl.

Sorry for not posting lately, it's because I ran out of things to post :/ Anyways, I camwhore-d alot and there's tonnes of pictures but I can't really post things online, it's not safe *winks*

Sorry, I get that alot from like, people. They tell you tonnes of things like how unsafe the world is now, bla bla bla, and dad says 'NO FACEBOOK IF TOO MUCH INFOMATION ABOUT YOURSELF' -If you think I wrote information wrongly, then you should tell me dad. He pronounces it that way.

I am kidding :)

And whoever knows my dad and who's reading my blog? Tell him, and you shall burn, in hell.

I am kidding - again :D

I like doing that, not that it's annoying, it is, but yeah. :)

Anyways, one week of holiday's gone.

All I did was stone, shop and got yelled at.

I did a cover :) Me and Nicholas

And apparently, Nicholas likes my fag face when I made mistakes, which is one of the bloopers >

Click here if you wanna see it :) 'HERE'

and here for some bloopers >< 'HERE'

The video on YouTube sounds better than the ones on Facebook ><

GOD, WAS IT EMBARRASSING.?!

But yeah, some laughter for everyone :)

Anyways :) Thanks for reading. Gonna catch some wave now :)

Lotsa love.