hungover.

You were drunk last night and I couldn't text you and ask if you're OK.
And I just saw your facebook wall, like girls were asking if you're okay and all?
That made me feel really bad.
Feel jealous and everything.
I couldn't DO anything.. It hurts so bad in here.
I love you and I couldn't sleep last night thinking about YOU.

My mind could only project your face smiling
And hearing that you were drunk made me feel really Really upset and bad.
I just want you to know what you're everything to me you know?

I didn't see you for ages, I didn't text you for ages, I didn't hear from you for ages..
It's a terrible feeling..


I love you..
Promise you'd not give up on me?
I really trust you..
You mean everything to me and I'm not just saying that.
I mean IT.

I weren't there when you're drunk..
Remember what you told me last time?
That you'd take care of me if I got drunk
and I'd do the same if YOU were,
But I wasn't there.
I didn't see you for weeks and my heart aches everytime I think of you.
I wish I was there to hug you and be with you,
and tell you not to drink so much.

I feel that the crap happened all because of me.
Everything was my fault.

Promise me this would be the last time you'd drink.
(ps, I wanna know what you cursed last night :[ )
Please..

I Love You :)
Take care darling.

I miss you

Hey, my second post of the day.

I just wanna tell you I miss you..

Bet you're having fun now.

Glad you are.

Wells, Life seems empty and boring without you.

Learning a way to survive it seems impossible. Boo.

You know?

I still remember you didn't let me sit beside your friend during the battle of the bands because he's pervy?

Thanks.

It's really sweet that you're so protective..

My dad shocked me..

Wells, I was lucky to closed this thing on time.. He was warning me about stuff so

I guess this is it :P

ILY - less than three

The crying.

Dear, nutcase.

Yesterday, Talitha, Nick JT, Bryan and my dear Dana came over to Midvalley.

I had fun but my mind wouldn't stop me from thinking about you.

Me and Tali went to F.O.S and tried on the Stewie shirt..

I remembered that I tried on the shirt with you that time.

Good memoriess :)

We walked over to Gardens and happened to stop by at Borders.

I couldn't help but wandered to our spot,

I sat there, thinking of you and tears started rolling down my cheeks..

It was a dreadful moment as I don't like embarrassing myself infront of them but I couldn't help it anyways..

Bryan bought me a starbucks lollipop.

Eventhough it was cherry, I ate it anyways.

Nick took some tissues and gave them to me.

Thanks guys.

I took a purple pen from the stationary section and doodled our initials on the wall beside our spot.

Thanks to Nick, Tali and Bryan they blocked me from the cctv.

I left the pen at some corner.

I miss you. Do you know that??

I kept thinking that you'd leave me but I was wrong.

I'm sorry.

I couldn't find a perfect person to talk to..

No one could ever replace you.

ILY

Janey♥

J♥J

Sorry, I'm such a dunggu.

Hey I just wanna say,

I don't mean to make you upset and stuff in that post..

I just can't help feeling this way, you know?

Everything is torture..

When I see you online and I can't talk to you??

It KILLS.

I'm serious..

I mean after all that happened just made me weaker..

Made me scared and feel unwanted just by a little excuse or so..

I mean, I just got more and more sensitive and demanding..

I don't mean to make things that way..

I know you're under alot of pressure and i'm sorry.

I hope you understand and forgive

and don't be mad.

I DO understand how you feel just that, I need to see you so badly.

I didn't talk or see you for merely 2 effing weeks.. It kills me you know??

Almost every second I click on your blog link to see if you blogged about today..

I just am frigging sorry..

I wish nothing ever happened..

I will always love you♥

********

[c=31][s]PIG! xD[/s][/c] says:

Even if u're dead, I doubt he'll rmb u 4ever...

cz once he gets another girl, the whole story changes

[ LittleLii♥ ]™ | J&J says:

...

you wanna make me cry somemore

[c=31][s]PIG! xD[/s][/c] says:

I'm jz telling u

***********

Boo.

Booger, another tiring day.

These days, my life seems so boring that even a 'Your mama' joke couldn't make me feel better.

Anyways, I'm still upset about yesterday.

I guess I was pretty stupid.. Till now.

I mean you can't blame me for feeling or being this way..

Hui Lim told me that even if you're sick?

You'd be there if you really love someone..

Hearing that makes me feel so unwanted..

Do you know?

I walked all the way there just to see if you were there? No, you weren't... I know I can't blame you for that..

After I got home I rest and my legs were numb, my back just ached so badly?

And I had tuition at night..

Things just got worst.

I feel like you wanna escape from the reality leaving me behind in here..

I just got the feeling you don't want anything to do with me anymore..

I know it may seem wrong and stupid for me to post this, but I just can't help it..

I'm just so tired of everything..

Sometimes I just feel like giving up..

I'll stop waiting when I KNOW that, you're not gonna wait anymore

Not 100% guys are going to wait for you like that.

But,

I do trust you but sometimes you gotta believe in reality.

I AM waiting, don't misunderstand but the problem is... How long?

Same to you?

How long will you wait?

One month?

4 months??

One Year?

Or

Till I'm 18?

I'm sorry if I made you unhappy with this post but what I'm saying is reality..

I L Y♥

whatever.

I guess I was pretty stupid hoping that he'd come.

I waited. Waited and waited..

You didn't show up.

Thanks, Chuun. You lost. He DIDN'T..

Whatever.

I don't care..

Why am I such a pooper?

I mean, I should understand he's busy, tired etc etc..

But, I guess I'm just being sensitive and demanding.

Pretty much a bitch.

I feel bad.

I don't wanna end up like this, but everything just made me not vulnerable.

But think again..

I'm quite stupid for looking at the window or staircase every 5 seconds.

Turning my head everywhere incase you might pop out

Or? I don't know.. I went to 100 Yen and memories just popped out, flash backs..

I saw the packet of lollipop and I thought of getting it but I didn't have enough money..

I wanted to cry like everytime YOU came to my mind..

It's like a knife stabbing me..

It has been 2 weeks since I've talked to you..

It's torture seeing you ONLINE but I can't say a word to you.

I've promised my parents I wouldn't do it.

I need a break.

My smile disappear after I finished my plate of food and not seeing you.

I decided to leave.

I just don't know anything anymore..

I'm confused.

I'm tired.

I'm exhausted.

I'm depressed.

I'm just done..

I Love You♥

Misery

I read your blog, it's been days since I've blogged.

With all these shit happening and all the things happening to fast and all?

I miss you so much everyday it hurts!

Reading you blog just made me cry

I'm actually OKAY at school but inside I just am filled with pain.

I tell Nick every single day that I miss you.

Everyday I think of you

Thoughts of you not waiting for me or dating other girls or not wanting me anymore just kills me.

I end up thinking stupid things but I'm waiting for you.

I'm waiting and I have faith in you.

I always tell me friends how much I miss you.

I just wanna look at you.

Just a glimpse of you would make me feel better.

I actually feel better after reading your blog.

I understand how you feel.

My phone's dead too, ever since we stopped texting each other..

I missed the times when I reach home every afternoon and look at my phone with a message that goes ''Hey bii or dear or sweetheart, I'm home! IMYSM.''

It makes me sadder.

Watching love stories and listening to love songs?

The song you always play on guitar? Tears in Heaven?

It's makes me really SAD and I can't help but to think about all the times we've had together..

...I miss you.

I will WAIT.

Thanks for everything.

I love you♥

Crushed.

It's not like I want it.

It's not that at all.

I feel so bad now, no one understands.

Everyone has their own problems, yeah.

It's like threatening.

I still miss you dearly.

Each and everyday.

It gets harder and harder.

I guess I just have to bear with it.

Besides, it's not like we wanted it.

Whatever happens, I'll try to stay strong and be happy..

on the outside.

In the inside?

Oh, it's like an empty black space.

It hurts.

And on Facebook?

My aunts are like apparently frigging free to read all my stuff and CALL my dad.

It got worst.

I just don't know what to do..

It hurts so badly.

No one understands.

Dear you.

I hope you're OK.

I know you're upset and very very depressed about it

But I promise that nothing will change in the inside.

No one's gonna stop me from loving you.

I swear.

Horn-y

Haha, it was a long long day. RAWR.

Hey you, Yeah you!

I miss you.

Yeah you must be thinking I'm mad but apparently I'm NOT.

Lately there's stalkers and creepy guys in school. They effing scare me. Like seriously? I'm really scared. It scares me. No offence? Yeah knowing people likes me yeah it's nice to know but THEY are over and THEY should BACK OFF. Like seriously, get a life. You have no idea how irritating YOU GUYS are. Beat it, assholes. Scam.

Ian's getting naughtier. Beat bad boy. I chased him all around just to make him eat a spoon of porridge!

Isn't he just SO cute?

I'm addicted to love songs. It's just so SWEET! Like sugar. Only sweeter.

I'm stubborn and hyper.

ALL AT ONCE.

How lovely hmm?

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long time.

Christ! Its been so long since I blogged! Anyways, ALOT ALOT ALOT of crap happened. i was banned from the internet and all because i got in trouble. BLAH BLAH BLAH.

I was frustrated, couldn't stop crying. Yeah yeah, hysterical. BOO.

But I'm all okay now. Alot has happened, like canteen day?

Okay, there wasn't much that happened lately. Though Sze, Carmen and afew of us played 'Pi Sian' (pencil spirit). Yeah, asked questions about something and wells, some did turn out okay but mostly made me worried. This teacher made an anouncement about us playing the thing and she said it's dangerous and we might get possessed. Yeah, we stopped playing it already. Yeah, it's the month of the hungry ghost festival. I feel restless. Ha Ha.

I'm being really unreasonable lately. Insecure. I know to you maybe it's bullshit but I just.. RAWR! Get me??

Yaya. Pfft xP

I wish time could pass faster. Sometimes it pasts fast, sometimes? It's ultimate slow. I wish time would pass in a blink of an eye. Ya ya.

It's a black post.